Aesthetize

Aesthetize

WayneSL 2013

We dance an uneven step through the seasons of our lives

And tiring or hurting we seek to rest and heal.

We beg a flat place to lie down

Or at least a branch on which to light
from which to hang

We quiet the storm with shrouds of gauze

And when our battle-weary spirits void our sleep

We seek surcease through the dulling of distractions

Anaesthetizing writhing thoughts
and turning off the senses

And in that peaceful web we lie
an easy prey for sullen silent death.

 

We need instead to aesthetize each other

wake each other out of the sodden, depressed stupor

the turgid smothering tar pit.

Sting my nose with spice and ice

my tongue with sweet vinegar

Pierce my ears with parallel open fifths

Dazzle my eyes with naked glowing buns

Shock my skin with waves of flame and frost

Resuscitate my wonder and lift my living

beyond this warm mud!

MoonFlower

moon in clouds

Play the Adagio from Chopin’s Piano Concerto in F#m.

 WayneSL 2013

Why these tears, this ache in my throat?
How can a dawn I have so long yearned for
Find me not surprised yet unbelieving?
How can I, who have always been too hard
Too quick to batter down the gate
Stand now amid the rushing throng
And beg another moment to prepare?
Is it that I finally see
How dawn leads to day leads to dusk
And in this creeping twilight sense a rushing night?
Do I finally face the rise of a blackened moon
on a bone-white landscape?
A scene I never comprehended,
Yet now I must claim that dark moon as my own.
Mortality has grown taller while I slept
And now I fear to sleep again that I may not wake.
Sleep was my desire until I waked to you.
Knowing you has brought my mortality full before my face
Because you are the essence of life to me
So full and fine and fair
So dark and taut and true
So much older and younger than me
So much a mirror against which I press
Fearing shards of broken glass
Yet weeping to melt and meld with you
Dissolve with you in these flowing tears
I love you. I fear you.
I lust for you. I die in you.
I lie beneath your moist, green turf
And pray your roots to penetrate my skin
And suck me in
To a new life as your leaf.